I was going to title this "Life as a Single Parent," but I know nothing of what it's like to be a single father. Truth is, all I know is what I've seen from the single mom's around me and from what is now my life. Lets start by defining, in the best way I… Continue reading Life as a Single Mother
I was sad today thinking about him. I don't know. I guess I was having a day full of moments of weakness where I missed him. But tonight, as I lay our children down to sleep, I realized I miss someone who was never really there. I tried so hard to save him from himself.… Continue reading I tried to save him, but in the end it wasn’t up to me to save him. He has to save himself.
You know how Facebook gives you a list of your memories, posts from other years pop up. I hate going through them because most of mine contain pictures of him or quotes about love tagging him. Today I saw a bunch of cute pictures of my daughter so I decided to look. What I didn't… Continue reading Eight years ago today…
I've forgotten your scent and what you feel like. It's been about three weeks since we've touched or spoken. How crazy is that? I remember when you would work overtime I would always sleep in the shirt you slept in last. I always would use your pillow. Your scent brought me such comfort. I remember… Continue reading Forgetting you.
It seems that it is time to accept the fact that my husband, for whatever unseen reason, will not make an effort to change, or to put his family first. It makes me deeply sad to accept this reality but he hasn't left me with much choice. I spoke to an old friend of his… Continue reading I Am Good Enough
Sometimes life kicks you in the stomach. You can't breathe. You can't see straight. You can't eat. The monster inside you grabs hold and doesn't let go. I've been crying on and off for weeks now. Sad about everything going on with my husband. I talked to him yesterday. From what he says it seems… Continue reading We all need to cry
I guess you could say I am having a hard time adjusting to all the sudden changes of my life. Especially when it comes to Gabe. He's so cold, distant, and harsh to me... but now it's all the time. I've lost any desire to talk to him or be around him. I have even… Continue reading Accepting my new reality