It seems that it is time to accept the fact that my husband, for whatever unseen reason, will not make an effort to change, or to put his family first. It makes me deeply sad to accept this reality but he hasn't left me with much choice. I spoke to an old friend of his… Continue reading I Am Good Enough
Sometimes life kicks you in the stomach. You can't breathe. You can't see straight. You can't eat. The monster inside you grabs hold and doesn't let go. I've been crying on and off for weeks now. Sad about everything going on with my husband. I talked to him yesterday. From what he says it seems… Continue reading We all need to cry
I must have really been a horrible person in my past life. I mean I must have been completely horrid. I have been dealt a pretty shitty hand at this thing called life and I thank God for my children because if I'm completely honest with myself, if I didn't have them I wouldn't have… Continue reading Until then…
For the past month I have struggled with the choice to stay in my marriage or leave. It's a question I ask myself on a daily basis now: Can I make it on my own? I wish there was an easy answer, but there isn't. There's no right or wrong, no maybe or yes or no.… Continue reading Can I Make It On My Own?
I am sick today, and it's nothing viral or something that could be cured with meds. I am so upset with my husband, I am sick with it. I have no appetite whatsoever. In the past week I've eaten maybe one meal a day. Every time I even think about eating my stomach lurches. Last night… Continue reading Sick
Admire My heart is aching as I sit here at my desk. Around me nurses are taking care of their patients, having coffee etc., all going about their day with no clue of the week I just had. I've only been here for an hour so far and already I am exhausted from putting on… Continue reading I Admire Your Strength to Know Your Worth.
I've been questioning my choice to stay since before I made it. Am I doing the right thing? Is he capable of change? What does this mean for our future? I question my choice almost every minute of every day. It seems like it's the only thought I have. Am I doing the right thing?… Continue reading Questioning