If you never see me again I pray you don't shed one tear. While I was here you were filled with hate anger and judgement. Was it deserved? I don't know and nor do I care. I am still a person After all. You spend your time berating me when I'm around. Constantly reminding me… Continue reading If you never see me again
Admire My heart is aching as I sit here at my desk. Around me nurses are taking care of their patients, having coffee etc., all going about their day with no clue of the week I just had. I've only been here for an hour so far and already I am exhausted from putting on… Continue reading I Admire Your Strength to Know Your Worth.
I've been questioning my choice to stay since before I made it. Am I doing the right thing? Is he capable of change? What does this mean for our future? I question my choice almost every minute of every day. It seems like it's the only thought I have. Am I doing the right thing?… Continue reading Questioning
I feel so confused and lost and lonely and depressed and so so unbearably sad. I keep replaying the events of that day in my head, trying to see if I can figure out where he snapped and I can't. I had no clue he would succumb again. You know what's breaking me right now?… Continue reading Hating Myself
I am the dumbest person I know. After repeatedly telling myself that if he were to ever hit me again I'd call the cops and leave.... I didn't. Nope. I didn't leave, didn't call the cops. Instead, I tried to talk to him. He ran. So I did a little searching (an angry wife is… Continue reading Dumb.. Dumber.. Dumbest.
Lately I can't help but feel the same way I felt after I was raped. Dirty. Disgusted. Confused. Used. I feel like my husband has no respect for me. One night, about four years ago, my husband and his friend were drinking at our condo. My husband got too drunk and I had to put him… Continue reading Disgusted
What is she to do... When she's been called names so much that her children think it's ok to call her them too? What is she to do... When a simple thank you is all it takes but she never gets it? What is she to do... When she constantly tries to do what is… Continue reading What is she to do…?