I did it and for the first time in over ten years, I did it all myself. No help. I found an amazing apartment, paid for it, and signed my lease today. Things feel like they are starting to go good. I'm proud of myself and happy and it's an amazing feeling. I'm going to… Continue reading I’m happy.
Rocking. Forward, backward. Forward again. Back again. Hair flows onto my face, brushing my cheek. And I rock. Forward. Backward. It's rhythmic. But I am not soothed. Clutching. Holding. Clutching a pillow to my chest. Holding it. Digging into it. Clutching and rocking back and forth, back and forth, as the hair falls into my… Continue reading To miss a thing you may have lost.
There's so much I can't say, all of which I want to say... but I can't. So much is going on and so much more has happened and at this point I have to keep it to myself. Now if you know me, you know thay writing is where I go to de-stress and make… Continue reading Tick tock.
Writing Prompt: Write a short story in which a character makes the difficult decision to end a meaningful relationship. Describe his/her feelings and thought process. End with "But (he/she) did it, (he/she) pushed (him/her) out the door and out of (his/her) heart. Her heart was broken and like shattered glass no matter how hard she… Continue reading Replaced
For a while after the incident, I was numb. I felt nothing most of the day and night and in a way it was comforting. I wasn't ready to feel, you see it's usually my emotions that get me in trouble. I make rash decisions based off of how I'm feeling that usually aren't the… Continue reading I miss the numbness.
I'm at the mall waiting for the stores to open, watching all the older guys and gals walk. It's rhythmic and soothing. I've been having a hard time getting him off my mind lately but it's ok. It's expected. With my birthday coming up, I don't know, I just can't picture the day without him.… Continue reading Sadness
I was sad today thinking about him. I don't know. I guess I was having a day full of moments of weakness where I missed him. But tonight, as I lay our children down to sleep, I realized I miss someone who was never really there. I tried so hard to save him from himself.… Continue reading I tried to save him, but in the end it wasn’t up to me to save him. He has to save himself.