Monster, monster. We meet again. I don’t even want to know where you’ve been. It’s been a few weeks without you here, surprisingly. The world is still black but you haven’t made a peep. Why is that? Of course, you couldn’t stay away. You’re here with me tonight, as always taking my breath away. Like a weigh on my chest, except you’re inside me. Squeezing my lungs little by little. Is it because of the past few days events that brought you back my way? Or were you just hiding until you felt bored enough to make your presence known?
Things aren’t ok. They haven’t been since I left him. All this time I thought I was ok but sadly I was wrong. What else is new. I’m wrong a lot.
Monster, monster. You’re making it hard for me to breathe. Hard for me to swallow. The darkness is rushing its way inside me and I feel so weak, I’m not sure I can stop it.
I want to cry. I’m not in a place where I can cry but I want to. I want to yell and let it all that’s been happening to me. I want to wake up tomorrow and have everything be ok. I want so many things that I have no control over.
Welcome back monster. Don’t get comfortable. I’ve held you at bay before. Tonight you make have your claws in me, I can feel them tearing at me. Ripping the last bits of me to pieces.