I am sick today, and it's nothing viral or something that could be cured with meds. I am so upset with my husband, I am sick with it. I have no appetite whatsoever. In the past week I've eaten maybe one meal a day. Every time I even think about eating my stomach lurches. Last night… Continue reading Sick
Admire My heart is aching as I sit here at my desk. Around me nurses are taking care of their patients, having coffee etc., all going about their day with no clue of the week I just had. I've only been here for an hour so far and already I am exhausted from putting on… Continue reading I Admire Your Strength to Know Your Worth.
I've been questioning my choice to stay since before I made it. Am I doing the right thing? Is he capable of change? What does this mean for our future? I question my choice almost every minute of every day. It seems like it's the only thought I have. Am I doing the right thing?… Continue reading Questioning
I feel so confused and lost and lonely and depressed and so so unbearably sad. I keep replaying the events of that day in my head, trying to see if I can figure out where he snapped and I can't. I had no clue he would succumb again. You know what's breaking me right now?… Continue reading Hating Myself
He came home last night. He didn't go to work. He's distant and doesn't want to talk. The one step I made last night was calling the VIBS hotline. The girl on the phone told me I need to go to the police, especially because he keeps doing it in front of my children. He… Continue reading Baby Steps: VIBS
I am the dumbest person I know. After repeatedly telling myself that if he were to ever hit me again I'd call the cops and leave.... I didn't. Nope. I didn't leave, didn't call the cops. Instead, I tried to talk to him. He ran. So I did a little searching (an angry wife is… Continue reading Dumb.. Dumber.. Dumbest.