The Monster Inside Me

The monster inside me is roaming tonight through the depths of my mind and soul. I feel it creeping through every inch of me. I feel it crawling its way through each vein, hitting every nerve on it’s way. My insides are churning, trying to fight the demon that lives within. It can’t win.

The monster inside me is free tonight. I struggle to hold myself together, to not let it take over. The demon is free and it’s taking over me, inch by inch. I am all consumed and struggling to hang on to the last bit of me that’s left. It’s a tug of war, and the monster is stronger. I can’t lose.

The monster inside me is clawing tonight, leaving it’s mark. You can’t get rid of me, it whispers. I cry, and shake in fear and in sadness. My body tenses, and grabs hold of itself hugging tighter and tighter. It’s bad tonight. The darkness is taking over, I can’t find the light. Keep breathing.

The monster inside me is suffocating me. Holding me down to it with a relentless grip that has me squirming from the inside out. It’s killing parts of me, it’s winning. Still I hold on to the last bits of me the darkness hasn’t consumed yet. Not all is black. I must fight.

Slowly, too slowly, the monster inside me recedes. Not completely. It lingers and leaves pieces throughout me. I feel them. It’s nauseating. The blackness won’t let up. The demon won’t let go. It’s loosened it’s hold for now, only to trick me into a sense of security that it will strip from me at any possible moment. For now, the monster lives inside of me. Slowly leaking and receding itself into my most inner depths. For now, I am somewhat safe. For now I am somewhat calm. For now, I can somewhat hang on. Until the monster comes for me again…

 

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