because financially its easier
& I’m not so sure I could survive in this world on my own.
I cope alone
because those closest to me won’t believe my struggles
& I’m embarrassed to admit to what I have been through.
because it keeps me breathing
& helps to chase the demons away.
because I hope you can’t see right through me
& I don’t want to bring your day down.
because I want to remember that life isn’t always so terrible
& to exercise my endorphins.
because even if I fail I can at least say I gave my all
& it may not have been enough but it was something.