My only friend is myself. Now how lame is that. Well it’s false of course. But what I’m searching for is more than a friend. It’s a great friend. Someone I can talk to everyday all day or sporadically about anything and everything. Someone who makes an effort to be a part of my life. Someone I can see more than once or twice a week. Who comes over just to hang or talk or do absolutely nothing. I used to have that a long time ago but those days are gone and I just feel so alone. Is that pathetic that I am a 24 year old mother who craves companionship and friendship.
I have Amanda. Who I’ve grown up with since I was maybe three years old. But we’re best friends but not that great at it. We see each other maybe twice three times a month. We text a few times a week. And when something good happens or bad even she’s usually the first one I call. But that’s just not enoughg for me anymore and no matter how hard I try to do things with herornhang out or even text more it’s a one sided effort. Pity.
Then there’s my other Amanda who I see about the same. Text a little less. And that’s about it.
Yea like I said. That’s about it.
It’s so hard to make a real friend these days. -_-