Am I crazy to actually be considering giving this marriage a second chance? Well I guess you could say this is way beyond a second chance. Throughout this relationship I must have given him over 100 chances. And I always take him back. But for the sake of our family and for our daughter I am willing to give this marriage another chance… I think. It will all depend on how willing he is to work on his anger, and the way he treats me and our baby. Ugh I wish I could see the future and know for sure if this is the smart decision. Maybe I’ll go to a psychic? Have you ever been? I’m not sure if I believe but I am willing to try anything.
Anyway I took Ariana to the doctor today and it turns out she has Roseola. My poor baby. The doctor says it will go away on it’s own so i’m not worried. Her fevers are gone finally so I’m happy. She is still so small… only in the 5th percentile but she’s growing accordingly. I would love to have another baby but I refuse to get pregnant again until something positive comes from this relationship.
I think a part of me is scared I will never be in a relationship again but then I realize how much bullshit that is. I’m not cocky but every guy I work with literally is drooling over me. I overheard them all talking about how they all wish they could take me out. At least they are respecting my boundaries right. lol.